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The Witness and the Now: Returning to What Is Real

In a world so often defined by distractions, deadlines, and mental noise, it’s easy to lose sight of something astonishingly simple: you only ever live in one moment — Now. The past is memory. The future is imagination. But life — real life — happens only here.

And only you can be conscious of it.

This present moment is not just a blip between two others. It’s the only point of existence, the unbroken field where everything unfolds. To be aware of it is not a luxury or spiritual flourish — it is the beginning of clarity, peace, and presence.

The I That Is Always Here

From the moment of your first memory until now, something in you has remained unchanged — an inner sense of “I am.” Not your name, not your opinions, not your circumstances, but the silent knower that has watched it all.

When you say, “I remember being five,” what you really mean is:
“I — the same witnessing presence — was there then, and I am here now.”

Everything else has shifted — thoughts, emotions, body, beliefs — but that witnessing “I” has never come or gone. It doesn’t age. It doesn’t rush. It sees.

Discovering the Witness

This brings us to a powerful word: Witness.

The Witness is the silent observer within you:

• Aware of thoughts, but not entangled in them.

• Feeling emotions, but not defined by them.

• Perceiving the world, but not lost in it.

It is you, stripped of roles and narratives. It is the part of you that can simply watch, without judging, resisting, or holding on.

When you’re angry, sad, overjoyed, confused — the fact that you can notice those states means something in you is already free of them. That something is the Witness.

The Practical Power of Presence

Being aware of the Witness — and grounding yourself in the Now — isn’t abstract philosophy. It’s deeply practical. Here’s how:

✅ Decisions become clearer — because you’re no longer reacting out of habit or fear.
✅ Stress reduces — as you stop living in imagined futures or replayed pasts.
✅ Relationships improve — because when you are present, you truly listen.
✅ Joy becomes accessible — not dependent on outcomes, but arising from the simple beauty of being.

Even a few seconds of returning to Now — through your breath, your senses, or stillness — can reconnect you with what’s real.

A Simple Practice

At any moment in the day, I try this:

1. Pause.

2. Feel my breath entering and leaving.

3. Notice sounds, light, and movement around me — without naming them.

4. Say silently:
   “I am the one aware of this.”

5. Rest there.

I don’t have to fight my thoughts. Just observe. In that observation, a gap opens — a moment of spaciousness. And in that space, I meet myself again.

The Witness and the Now Are One

To witness is to be present.
To be present is to witness.
They are not two separate practices — they are one movement back to what has always been with you.

The Witness doesn’t need to be created.
It only needs to be recognized.

And when you do, life changes — not because the world changes, but because you’re no longer lost in it. You’ve come home to the only moment you’ll ever live in: Now.
And the only one who can truly know it: You.

Reflection :

What is one moment today where I can pause, become the Witness, and return to Now?

The Illusion of Permanence

We live in a world where everything appears solid. Houses stand firm, names are etched in stone, and people speak as though their positions, identities, and beliefs are set in concrete. But physics, philosophy, and personal experience all point to a deeper truth: nothing is solid. Nothing is permanent.

Modern science has stripped away many of our comforting illusions. Atoms, once thought to be tiny building blocks, are mostly empty space, their components flickering in and out of existence. Time bends. Particles jump unpredictably. What looks stable is actually in motion—changing, vibrating, decaying.

And yet, most of us live as though things will stay just as they are. We ignore what science and physics have taught us and pretend.

We plan, we accumulate, we define ourselves through roles, possessions, opinions. We fear change, and cling to certainty—even when it hurts us. Why?

Some of it is practical. Our biology is built for survival, not truth. Predictability helps us function. The illusion of permanence gives us a kind of mental foothold in a fast-flowing river. But there’s more to it than that.

We’re afraid. Afraid of loss, of death, of meaninglessness. Afraid that if everything changes, then nothing matters. So we tell ourselves stories. Stories about forever. About permanence. About control.

And into that fear step those who promise safety. Leaders, ideologies, systems—offering to take the burden of uncertainty off our shoulders. “Follow me,” they say, “and I’ll protect you from the chaos.”

But if we look more closely, it becomes painfully clear: power is only ever given. Those who seem to have control over others are only empowered because the rest of us accept the story they tell. We trade our freedom for their promises. We allow the illusion to harden into a structure.

There’s no real control—only agreement. And often, it’s agreement with something that doesn’t serve us at all.

This fear-based resistance to impermanence is the source of so much suffering. Grasping at what must pass. Resisting what must come. Hoping life will sit still for us when its very nature is movement.

Buddhism calls this clinging the root of suffering. The Stoics call it false expectation. Taoists say, simply, that to fight the flow is to lose one’s harmony with life. Modern psychology has its own terms, but the message is the same: peace comes not from holding on, but from letting go.

There’s great freedom in this—not nihilism, but clarity. When we stop pretending that anything outside of us is permanent, we begin to look within for what is. And here, I’ve found something worth sharing.

There is, within each of us, a place untouched by change. Not a belief. Not a theory. A feeling. A presence. Call it peace, call it being, call it home. Call it me.  Whatever the name, it is something you can feel, now—not someday, not when everything is “sorted,” but right here, in this breath.

Teachers like Prem Rawat speak to this with simplicity and warmth. He reminds us that the only thing that doesn’t change is this moment, lived fully. That the peace we seek isn’t out there in the shifting world, but already within us, waiting to be felt.

When I touch that place in myself, the fear of change fades. I can love more easily, because I no longer need guarantees. I can grieve without being destroyed. I can live without being trapped in the illusion that life will wait for me to be ready.

The truth is, life isn’t a thing to hold on to. It’s a wave to ride. A breath to feel. A gift to receive.

And perhaps the most beautiful thing is this: once we stop insisting on permanence, we can finally begin to appreciate things as they are—precious precisely because they are passing.

Courage: Do I Have the Necessary Courage When Times Get Hard?

I sometimes ask myself whether I have the courage I’ll need when things really get difficult. Not the kind of courage that makes headlines or earns medals—but the quiet, enduring kind. The courage to remain human when the world forgets what that means. The courage to live by what I believe even if everything around me is falling apart.

These thoughts often come to me when I consider how quickly the world seems to be unravelling. “Going to hell in a handbasket,” as the old saying goes. It’s an overused phrase, but lately, it doesn’t feel like an exaggeration. Climate, politics, society—so many systems feel brittle, like they're held together with frayed string. I wonder what might lie ahead, especially as I grow older. If I live to be over ninety, what kind of world will I be living in? I’ve imagined four different futures, each more difficult than the last.

The first: the key change is due to climate. Water becomes scarce. Rationing becomes a way of life. Crops suffer, food becomes harder to come by. But at least, where I live, there is no war. People are tense, perhaps fearful, but the social structure hasn’t collapsed. It would take resilience to live in such a world, but not necessarily moral courage. Not yet.

The second: climate chaos remains, but now society has fragmented. Local vigilante groups have taken power, dividing the land into jealously guarded territories. Fear and suspicion grow. “Their turf” versus “ours.” The law means little any more. This is where courage begins to take on a different shade. Do I hide? Resist? Collaborate? Survive?

The third: as the climate worsens and local conflicts multiply, wider war breaks out. My country isn’t directly under attack, but it is pulled into the conflict. Contributions are demanded—manpower, goods, loyalty. The old dream of neutrality falls away. This is the moment when everyone is asked to take a side. Would I go along? Could I refuse?

And the fourth: everything above, plus an unravelling so total that any attempt to restore structure feels like patching a sinking ship. People scramble to hold onto something—anything—that feels stable. But too few are willing to sacrifice their privilege, their comfort, their certainty. Without shared willingness, the centre cannot hold. Here, the danger isn’t just external—it’s in the loss of meaning, trust, cohesion.

And in every one of these futures, the same moral question rears its head. Sooner or later, I might be faced with a terrible choice: fight and possibly kill, or resist and possibly die. In that moment, would I have the courage not to abandon my humanity?

I think of people like Bertrand Russell, who refused to fight in World War I and went to jail for it. Later, he helped to lead the “Ban the Bomb” movement. I think of the Quakers, quietly courageous, who took their stand on non-violence even when society scorned them. I’ve always admired such people. Could I follow their path?

It’s easy to imagine myself being brave in the abstract. But when a gun is pressed to your temple, and someone demands obedience or blood—what then? The question chills me. I don’t claim to know the answer. I do know I’m capable of defending myself to a point, but that point is growing shorter every year. Physical strength ebbs. What’s left is clarity and resolve—or fear and compromise.

Would I be strong enough to say no, even if that meant the end of me? I hope so. I hope that even then, I could feel grateful for the life I’ve had. That I wouldn’t be driven by fear or anger, but able to see—even in that final moment—that life is a gift, not a possession to cling to at all costs.

Courage, in the end, might not mean standing up with fists raised. It might mean letting go. It might mean trusting that inner strength is more powerful than a gun. That the dignity of a life lived in alignment with one’s conscience matters more than survival at any cost.

I don’t want to be tested in this way. But if I am, I pray I’ll still be able to look inward, find that still point, and say: I remember who I am. I am still human.

We Outlaw Murder, Then Train People to Do It

Murder Is Not Murder? A Personal Reflection on the Madness We Justify

Murder is not murder?

That phrase caught me off guard the first time it crossed my mind. It’s double-think at its worst. Every country on Earth has laws that prohibit the taking of another human life. We all nod our heads in agreement when we say murder is wrong. And yet—somehow—we keep doing it. We justify it. We twist it. Not only that, but we even make it heroic.

Why do we have laws against murder in the first place? My own sense is that, at the most basic level, we've observed something about death. Its finality. Its irreversibility. There's a natural understanding, deep in the human heart, that life is precious—and not something to be cut short lightly. That awareness is universal, even among those who have lost touch with their conscience.

And yet, we kill.

And what's worse—we build systems to make it acceptable. We create laws, and then we train lawyers to find clever ways around them. It’s almost as if the purpose of law becomes not to uphold what’s right, but to find legal cover for what is clearly wrong. If the right argument is made in the right courtroom, even murder can become "justified." The very framework that’s meant to protect life is twisted to excuse its destruction.

On an individual level, what drives a person to take another’s life? The usual suspects come to mind—fear, greed, hatred, jealousy. But those are surface-level explanations. I find myself asking a more uncomfortable question: Why do we allow these emotions to overpower the deep knowing inside us—that killing is wrong?

There is something so fundamentally sacred about each person. Not in a religious sense necessarily, but in a profoundly human sense. The uniqueness of each individual is miraculous. Every single person contains within them an entire world of dreams, fears, memories, and hopes. A whole lifetime. And we know this—not abstractly, but intimately. We feel it about ourselves. And at our best, we feel it about others too.

So why do we forget?

My conclusion is this: we’ve been taught to forget. Or at least, we haven't been taught to remember. From early on, we learn to see others as background characters in our personal story. Our culture celebrates individualism, competition, and dominance. Even entertainment normalizes violence. Think of the video games where human lives are reduced to “targets,” and killing them earns you points. Points?! It’s absurd. It's unconscious. And yet it's woven into how many people escape into fantasy.

And it’s not just the games—it’s the language we use. Soldiers are “neutralized.” Collateral damage is “unfortunate but necessary.” We speak in euphemisms to conceal the horror. Orwell was right when he warned us in 1984 about doublethink: “To know and not to know, to be conscious of complete truthfulness while telling carefully constructed lies... to forget whatever it was necessary to forget...”

This isn’t just individual confusion—it’s institutionalized murder. As a society, we’ve found ways to legitimize the killing of others, especially when they are labelled “the enemy.” One of the biggest tools for this is nationalism. The idea that “my country,” “my flag,” or “my way of life” is somehow superior—so superior, in fact, that it justifies killing those who don’t share it.

Isn’t that the rationale behind almost every war?

My bit of land, my inherited myths, my tribe—they matter more than yours. And if you disagree, I’ll kill you. Not personally, of course—I’ll outsource that to someone in uniform and call it honour. But the act is the same. It’s murder, dressed up in ritual and rhetoric.

And what’s truly sad is that this mindset not only devalues the lives of others—it cheapens our own. If we don’t see other lives as special, how can we believe our own is? If we’re all just cogs in a machine, or actors in someone else’s script, then anything becomes possible. Even the most dreadful things.

But there is another way.

There are voices—quiet but clear—reminding us of what it means to be human. I think of Prem Rawat, a teacher I deeply respect, who speaks not about religion or politics but about the importance of inner peace and understanding our own humanity. In one of his talks, he said: “The day you begin to see the value of your own life is the day you will begin to see the value of all life.”

That rings true to me.

We don’t need more ideologies. We need more awareness. We need to reawaken that part of us that knows life is a miracle—ours and everyone else's. Imagine what might change if we actually lived with that awareness day by day. If instead of seeing others as threats or tools or competitors, we saw them as fellow travellers through this astonishing, fleeting journey of life.

Life is short. Too short for hate. Too short for war. Too short for justifying the unjustifiable.

The craziness is never justified. Not when we pause long enough to remember what it really means to be human.

The Arrogance of Control: A Reflection on Change and Power

I am always astounded—though by now I really shouldn’t be—by the arrogance of politicians. The assumption behind so much of their rhetoric and action is twofold: first, that they know what’s best for everyone, and second, that they have the power to deliver it by controlling circumstances, people, and outcomes. It’s a kind of hubris so embedded in modern political life that we barely notice it anymore, yet when I pause to reflect, it still jars me.

The world we live in is in constant motion. Every single day, we discover that what we thought was true yesterday is already being revised, undone, reshaped. Yesterday’s static image of reality has morphed—quietly but completely—into something else. That’s not a metaphor. It’s a fact observable in everything from the molecular level of biology to the largest structures in the cosmos. Change is not a feature of life—it is life. Yet somehow, politicians, with all their polished speeches and staged debates, continue to behave as if reality can be frozen, manipulated, and marched into compliance with their latest policy frameworks.

It’s laughable, really. Picture someone trying to freeze the ocean, not by technology, but by standing at the shore and commanding the waves to stop. As, it is said, that King Canute attempted. That’s the level of absurdity we’re dealing with when someone says, “We’ll eliminate inflation by next year,” or “We’ll fix the global climate through this summit,” or “We have a ten-year plan to end poverty.” Noble intentions, perhaps. But these promises are often blind to the sheer complexity—and unpredictability—of the systems they claim to control.

We live on a tiny chunk of dirt spinning around a relatively average star, in what appears to be an unremarkable arm of a rather ordinary galaxy. And even so, the forces that keep this planet going are mind-blowing in their scope. Gravity, electromagnetic fields, tectonic shifts, solar winds. The energy that powers this vast and intricate dance is the same energy that flows through every single human being. It moves us, inspires us, shapes us. Not one of us is separate from it—not even the politicians. And yet, we continue to entertain this strange, antiquated belief that power can harness life and bend it into submission.

Science has been showing us for centuries that this isn’t how the universe works. Think of the Heisenberg Uncertainty Principle—a foundational idea in quantum mechanics. At the subatomic level, it’s not possible to precisely measure both the position and the momentum of a particle at the same time. The act of observation changes the outcome. In other words, even in the realm of pure physics, control is an illusion. And yet we still trust in five-year plans, campaign promises, and public inquiries to bring about neatly predictable outcomes.

Just look at the COVID-19 pandemic. It was a global masterclass in humility. Suddenly, nations boasting the world’s most sophisticated health systems were scrambling. Leaders who just months earlier were speaking with certainty about economic growth found themselves pleading with citizens to stay home, and trying to model viral behaviour with charts and projections that changed week by week. Despite all our tools, all our data, all our planning, the virus made a mockery of our sense of control.

And yet, what did many politicians do? They doubled down. Some began blaming scientists, others blamed other nations, some even blamed their own citizens for “not complying enough.” At no point did the political class pause to say: Maybe we don’t know. Maybe life is too vast, too interconnected, too dynamic to be managed like a company spreadsheet.

Even on a smaller scale, the desire to control extends into our personal lives. City councils draft zoning laws assuming they can predict how communities will evolve. Educational boards create rigid curricula, thinking they can predefine the needs of children who will be adults in a world we can’t yet imagine. And individuals, too, try to script their lives down to the minute, only to find that love, loss, illness, joy, or inspiration show up uninvited and throw the whole plan into question.

So where does this strange idea come from—that anyone can manage life itself? Perhaps it’s fear. Chaos frightens us. Change unsettles us. And control, or at least the appearance of it, offers a temporary comfort. But it’s a lie, and deep down we all know it. Real wisdom lies not in pretending to master the ocean, but in learning to sail—and even to dance—with the waves.

I don’t want leaders who claim certainty. I want leaders humble enough to admit when they don’t know, curious enough to listen, and wise enough to respond with flexibility rather than force. The same goes for how I want to live my own life: not according to rigid plans, but in relationship with the ever-changing now.

Because the truth is, life doesn’t obey blueprints. It grows, it shifts, it surprises. And that, in the end, is what makes it so breathtakingly beautiful.